So Tired

For some reason today I am just wrecked. It has been a very busy weekend, of a very busy month, in a relatively busy year but for some reason today just has me beat.

The problem of course is that this makes me not want to do anything, including of course writing anything for this thing that nobody actually reads.

I hate feeling like this because it's not just tiredness. It's more than that. There is a Tahitian word "fiu" which I think could be applied to how I'm feeling. Fiu can mean being tired, being bored, being frustrated or being all those things all at once, which is essentially the way I feel right now. Tired, bored, frustrated and to top it all off a little bit crappy.

This has sucked away what little motivation I have to do any of the stuff I need to do, which frankly is a lot. So I'm forcing myself to start by writing this blog, making my brain work with the hope that if I can get this started and done I will have the motivation to carry on and get some of my other stuff done before I just crash out.

I have to say it's working a little bit. I'm still feeling pretty shattered but I think making the effort to start something has helped the sensation of being drained subside somewhat.

Sometimes unfortunately that is the case with life: We are tired and unmotivated but the only way to really get out of it is to force ourselves to do something, maybe even anything as long as it gets us moving, gets us physically or mentally active. That way although the tiredness won't completely disappear, at least you are over the hump and get get some forward momentum going.

So on that note I leave this now so I can ride this forward movement into my other tasks...