I had heard that any dream worth having was worth fighting for. People are always telling me that if I really wanted something I'd make it happen but sometimes you just know it's a lost cause. It's hard to fight for something when you already feel like you've lost the battle and it is surprising how much you can get hurt on the sidelines. Maybe I am too weak, too cowardly for my own good.
"Am I a coward?... I am pigeon livered and lack gall".
This in and of itself could be reason enough for my failure and my failure to fight for what I want. When it comes to fight or flight? I guess I tend to choose flight and maybe that's reason enough, if I'm not willing to fight for it why would I deserve it?
Particularly in matters of love. If I'm not willing to fight for it, how deserving of it could I possibly be? People want that guy who's going to boldly rush the field bearing your flag, dodging all obstacles and attacks and who is willing to plant it where it matters and swear to hold his ground. My problem is when I think of putting myself in that sort of situation instead of being seen as the heroic guy making a curageous move for love, I'll be seen as the annoying stalker guy who should really know when someone isn't interested...
No comments:
Post a Comment