Confidence is a funny thing. There always seems to be this idea that people are either confident or not; but I find and maybe it is just personally, but there is no such thing as being either wholly confident or completely lacking confidence. There are aspects of my live where I am confident to the point of cockiness and then there are aspects of my life where i completely lack any confidence whatsoever.
I surely I'm not the only person like this. Growing up I always had this persona of being quiet to people who didn't really know me while my Friends and family would laugh at the idea of me being a quiet person. I have always found it strange the idea of being labeled one way or the other.
There are situations where I thrive and others where I wither and fade into the background. I have never been a party person and have never been very adept at initiating social interaction, this thus extends into my skill at relationships where my confidence is probably at its nadir. However let me join a conversation and I'm off and running, I even have the audacity to consider myself quite the wit. Also I have found myself to be extremely comfortable with public speaking; put me in front of a crowd with an idea to share, a lesson to teach or a story to tell and I am in my element. I love the the vibe and energy that comes from expounding an idea to a group of people and interacting with them, getting feedback, discussing things. This is all fantastic fun for me and is the type of situation where I might even be a touch cocky about my own speaking abilities; but leave me alone in a room with someone I barely know or try and get me to consider asking someone out and I'll shut down in a nervous panic of what to say or do and probably just sit there in uncomfortable silence. I cant' be the only person like this can I?
No one is completely confident about every aspect of their life right? and surely there's no one out there despite whatever massive crippling self doubt they might have about most areas in their life that isn't confident about something they do?
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